Eighteenth week of LPC

It has finally occurred to me what the biggest difference between the LPC and final year of a law degree.
You will almost always fail mocks and non-formative assessments. I managed to fail 3 and passed 1. Coming from never having failed anything, it hit me pretty hard. Like when you stub your toe. It stings like a beachhhhh. But it's okay, I've had to get over it. Next month we have 3 exams, I can't afford to be moping about. Got to study study study.

It's actually been pretty tough week for me. I'm not going to lie, I don't know how I'm going to remember all the stuff for exams. People always say, "you'll be fine", my friends always tell me "you'll be fine", my parents and sister always say, "you'll be fine". But I can't help but think, what if I'm not fine? Because right now, I don't feel fine.
But it's okay to be not fine. At least for me, being not fine, putting this pressure on myself is making me work hard. Failing isn't an option, so giving up is even less of an option.

What I am truly thankful for is my friend and sister. This cutie came to surprise me. 15 years of friendship, and rocking up at uni with a cup of chai latte was honestly one of the best gifts ever. You're the best. Then exactly 10 minutes after she left, my sister rocked up with my favourite green tea and red bean bun. I LOVE YOU SPAM <3

Okay, so I've not been completely quarantined in my studies. At night, we go a little nuts from studying, so how could we possibly study more when we go back to halls? But the best part of the week? It was this guy's birthday. Yup, this 23 year old guy with the baby fat still stuck on his cheeks :P I'm happy to have been able to celebrate your birthday with you. This may be the first and last time that I ever do, but I hope that you enjoyed yourself. You're one of those friends who keeps me laughing even when I feel like digging a hole and falling into it. Half the time I don't even know why I'm laughing. Then you ask me what I'm laughing about, whilst laughing with me.

Oh Kirsh, just you. Laughing at your laugh, because it makes me laugh, it's such a funny laugh.

 

Thank you for inviting me to your super crazy, and weirdly well organised spontaneous birthday party, it was so good, mostly. Let's just say no more rum for me, like ever.

Every week is another beautiful week. I'm just glad I'm alive with you all. We live for the people we love, and right now, that's the reason why I'm living so well.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Because my love for you all is so heavy it sinks to the bottom.

♡~